Mother's Day 2011

Almost 6 1/2 years ago to the day, I gave birth to my best friend. Ms. Bayleigh LizMarie Rutherford!!! She entered this world weighing a tiny 6 lbs. 14.9 ozs. and was 19 in. long. This tiny being of a person filled my heart with so much love I thought my heart couldn't possibly stay in my chest. I NEVER in my wildest dreams imagined this type of love and I NEVER want to experience a day in my life without again.

Tomorrow is Sunday, May 8th, 2011--Mother's Day. I know that the focus is supposed to be on the mommy of the house--that of course is me. However, tomorrow, I will be celebrating Bayleigh. I will celebrate her because she is my every reason for living in this world. She is my everything and I love her more than words could ever express. The second they put her in my arms in that surgery room, I changed. I sofened. I learned at that VERY moment what life is all about. Talk about seeing the light! I always tell Bayleigh, "You know how I know God loves me...He gave me you"! Boy did I ever do something right. :)

Having Bayleigh also did something to my relationship with my own mother. I think the one thing I am learning very quickly is about the word regret. My mom was a single mother to twin girls. We certainly did NOT make her life easy. We still don't to be honest. Since this past October things have changed in our family. I decided to be done with my sister. ((This does not change the fact that I love her very much)). We never really have gotten along--my poor mom can vouche for that. (regret) I know that this decision tears my mom apart (regret), but it's working for us girls. Life is so much more less dramatic, less stressful, and easier without the fighting.

I am sorry, back to my point....my relationship with my mom has softened as well. I love her. I have always loved my mom, but never had I showed it the way she deserves. (regret). I sadly, don't think I do now either. (regret). The day Bayleigh entered our lives I not only became a mommy, but my mom became a Grammy--and a dang good one at that. I see a joy in my mom's eyes and smile when Bayleigh is around that I never noticed before. It's beautiful.

I am 29 years old and so that means that for 29 years I have not been a good daughter, but it's never too late to change your story. As a matter of fact my Bible study right now is over a book titled Same Life, New Story. My new story starts now because it is NEVER too late to change. I will be a better mommy as of today. I will be a better daughter as of today. I will be a better me all together as of today. I hope I can make my mom as proud of me as I am of Ms. Bayleigh. I love you mom and am so sorry for being such a pain when I was little, OK and as an adult too. Bayleigh, YOU are my LIFE. I love you so much and I hope I will continue to show you just how much, each and every day. I love you chick-a-dee!!!!!

I hope you all enjoy your Mother's Day tomorrow. A very special Happy Mother's Day goes out to my Mom, Rachel, Kristen, Jenn, Jennifer, Aunt Mary, and every other woman in my life. Love you all!!! Until Next Blog!

Love,

Jenn

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